life is suffering

ladies and gentlemen if you want to truly be a success on this earth
heres what you must do
1st youve got to cut out the coffee when you wake up
its just a sugary kick in the balls to that devil in you
fuck your lazy body
don’t give that mother fucker sugar
2nd you’ve got to start smoking weed when you wake up
now, i know what you’re thinking
hes trying to be funny
i’m dead serious
5-6ish am your spirit is a wet noodle
you gotta get aligned son

the mind/body dilemma
do you ramp your day up with coffee for the body
or a little bit of love for the mind
just to balance yourself out, ya know
you can be an asshole for the whhhhhhole remainder of the day
i’m just asking for about 7 minutes of your time
and i’m not saying get stoned before work
i’m saying you take 10 deep breathes in your car in the garage
just give me two of the ten
you take one hit, then five deep breathes
then repeat the cycle once more
say a positive mantra
this is where you really start off the direction of the day
mine goes like this (morgan freeman voice) “dear LORD don’t let nobody fuck with me”

and this works if you’re a cop
this works if you’re a principle of some fucked up high school
works really well if you have some job you hate haha

you just tell yourself during your ten breathes
i’m gonna treat people how I would like to be treated
i’m gonna look mother fuckers in the face and smile
and if I encounter some negative energy, i’m not going to run away from it, or help grow it
i’m just gonna try to dismantle it
not absorb it
well maybe absorb it

its like, when you go to a beach, you pick up some trash on the way out cause you want to leave it cleaner than when you arrived
same thing with life
when you go out into the matrix each morning
you can’t just be polluting it up with all your shit each day
beeping at the guy in front of you at the light cause hes texting
or lose your mind cause someone didn’t practice the “common courtesy” you thought you we’re entitled to
thats obstacles bitch
one of buddha’s noble truth was ‘life is suffering’
(I believe, that came out as if I knew anything about buddha. I did listen to siddhartha on audiobook when I was a kid though haha)

I don’t know where I was going with this to be quite honest
I just felt like I should get my mandatory support for weed out of the way before I went any further with this blog
I feel like it really weeds out my readers
anyone who read this far
i’m happy to have you lol

Kassius arrived this week. Or maybe, last week; I can’t be sure
the drive up the 99 to the hospital was lit by the harvest moon on the night of the 18th
supposedly it was fullest at at 6 or 7 am the next morning on the 19th
he was born late in the 8 o clock hour
8:41am
but still close lol

now both of my children have been born on the 19th
perhaps they will have similar personalities?
i can’t remember the day of your births significance
my daughters hella cool so thats good
I wanted Kassius to be born on the 16th or 25 for numerology reasons haha
but i’m happy he came on the 19th
my wife actually had a pretty crazy birth
our seemingly inept doctor missed the breach
so she end up going into labor unnecessarily
if we would have known she was going to need a c-section I would have scheduled that shit for the 16th, ya know?
but apparently once you have a c-section you have to have it that way for the rest of your life
so at least if I have another kid I can pick that date lol

I was browsing through this edgar cayce book while I was waiting at the hospital
and there was this section about when Jesus was really born
edgar says March 19th
Kassius is literally the polar opposite calendar wise
hopefully thats not an issue haha
although, to be quite honest, i’m pretty sure he was conceived on a rowdy night of boozing for my birthday on Dec 20
ya know, in the wee hours post closing time
December 21 2012ishhhhh
crayyy
but, lets be honest
you know how many kids are probably born around Kassius?
everyone was probably scared as fuck
thinking aliens are coming down
trying to get one last nut off before the end haha
my wife has two friends who had children within 6 days of him
ill have to look into that lol

oh man, it was the worse
we’d been staying with her grandparents during our move
and you know, their diet is literally pure corn syrup, just the worst shit you could buy
no nutritional value, just like a preservative/additive cocktail of sugar
so when my wife is going into labor
i’m in the car with the worst stomach ache
not like i had to shit my pants, but you know, that upper region that feels like cheese boiling on your spine
you know, that feeling you get after leaving the movie theater after eating a tub of popcorn and jug of soda
but X that by like a week!
i didnt want to complain you know, how can you?
its like no matter what I say i’m an asshole so I just bit my lip and powered through it
and then I followed that up with a few days of hospital food
I think I could literally feel the pH balance of my body change haha
the serpent just fell of the tree
but you’ll be pleased to know that i’m doing just fine now
Kassius is doing great too
I couldn’t be happier
I feel so blessed and I am literally so grateful

I think back how much things have turned around in one year
how bad things got fucked up and now how now I feel like i’ve never been happier
I sound like someone whos about to OD haha

it was funny, I had been going over his numerology and one of the blups said “your clothes will always fit like they were made perfectly for you.”
and the first outfit my wife changed him into, my mother in law was like “wow, that  fits him perfectly”
i’m like “damn right, I fucking named him didn’t I?” haha

well its 3 am now
i need to get going to bed
I have to wake up early and go to my wife’s grandparents house in the morning to drink beer and watch football with her elderly grandfather
his beer too
life is good lol